撰文／奥克兰教会 邝咏愉｜圣灵月刊355期-2007.04｜主题／全为主用
奉主耶稣圣名作见证：
感谢主让我有机会在这里数算神的恩典。以前我的脾气不好，常常无缘无故打小孩。1997年马小娟姊妹对我说：“我现在去一间教会，妳也可以来，看能不能帮助妳。”感谢神，借此将我带到祂面前。
从那时候开始，我就常常在安息日来到教会，享受祂所赐的福气，并于1998年10月接受洗礼，成为神的儿女。
靠主坚守信仰
《圣经》十诫中的第二诫吩咐我们：“不可为自己雕刻偶像，也不可作什么形像仿佛上天、下地，和地底下、水中的百物。不可跪拜那些像，也不可事奉牠……”（）。
因此我既然敬拜创造天地万物的独一真神，领受主耶稣许多的恩典，也知道遵守《圣经》中的十诫是身为神的儿女最基本的信仰原则，所以我理当尽力去遵守神的诫命。
2000年3月，因家母重病，我和姊姊一同回大陆探望她。这次回国也是最后一次见母亲的面。母亲在1976年患了精神病，病发作就会骂人，在半夜随处乱走。感谢主的怜悯，自从我开始慕道，常常为母亲祷告，她渐渐地脱离那种折磨。在她离世时，村里的亲友叫齐我们姊妹，要我们一起跪在母亲面前下拜。
我告诉他们，我不能跪，因为我已经信耶稣了。他们就斥责我说：“妳妈生妳养妳，今日她离世了，叫妳向她跪拜，妳都不肯，真不孝顺！”不管怎么说，我还是坚持不跪，姊姊对我说：“就那么一下子，妳就跪吧。”
我回答说：“就那一下子，我跪下去就永远不能再回头了。孝顺父母，不是等他们死后才表现出来，当父母还在世的时候我们就要多关爱他们，多回报给他们。”姊姊听了这话也非常生气，说：“我再也不理妳了。”
感谢主，祂是无处不在的，祂是我们随时的帮助，只要你倚靠祂，祂必帮助你。我蹲下来默祷求主开路。就在闭上眼默祷的时候，主让我两次看到在半空中有火焰由远而近，很清楚地燃烧着，心里顿时感到一阵欣慰和平安。
虽然母亲离开我，但主却不离开我。祂亲自安慰我，使我不忧愁，不害怕。之后，没有人再勉强我跪，父亲甚至替我解围，要大家尊重我的信仰。这使我想起神在何烈山上呼召摩西的情景，感谢主，是祂擦干我的眼泪，保守我圣洁。
主恩够用
2000年9月的一个清晨，天还未亮，突然听到汽车的警报器响起，车子很快就被开走了。先生马上开着另一辆车追了出去，我在家打电话报警，然后跪下来祷告。刚开始祷告的时候，只求主让先生能把车子找回来，没想过他的安全。
很奇妙，在祷告当中我忽然想到，车子追到又怎样？他一个人能开两辆车回来吗？对方有几个人？他安全吗？想到这些，就对主说：“主啊，感谢祢。这车子是祢赐给我的。如果祢让我拥有这辆车子，车子一定能找回来，现在求主保护先生平安回家吧！”祷告完不久，先生平安回到了家。
隔天晚上，也就是星期五的晚上。唱诗祈祷会刚结束，我正准备带两个孩子回家，突然听见儿子哭喊着：“妈妈，我们的车子又被人偷走了。”听见儿子的哭喊声，我赶快跑到门口查看，只见车子一阵风似地被人开走了。三天之内丢了两部车，我一时急得不知如何是好，也跟着小孩哭了起来。当时教会负责人郭弟兄请大家帮忙祷告，同时报警。
感谢神，信靠神的必不至于羞愧，全心倚靠祂，祂必帮助你。在教会被偷的车子两天之后就找到了，另一辆也在两个月后寻回。在那段日子里，弟兄姊妹天天为我们代祷。
一位姊妹还把车子借给我们使用，有的在经济上帮助我们，有些亲自到家里慰问。从弟兄姊妹这些点点滴滴的关爱中，我看到了神丰丰富富的恩典。我由衷地感谢主，求神记念他们的爱心。有主真好，主恩必够我用。
靠主得胜
2004年4月的学校假期，儿子肚子痛的毛病又发作了。看了两次医生，按时吃药，都没有效果。医生又安排他去儿童医院照X光，也没有发现异常。可是他的肚子还是照样疼痛，特别奇怪的是，总是在晚上发作，而且几乎是同一个时间，每天晚上时间一到，他就痛得又哭又叫。
那时正值教会举办秋季灵恩布道会，在第四日晚，因为先生提早下班回家，我就没有带儿子去聚会，叫他在家休息。到了夜里12点，忽然听到他在厕所门口大哭，那哭声充满了恐惧。我急忙跑去察看，原来他痛醒想上厕所。他说在厕所门口有一个金发女孩，手拿一根棍子，从后面抱住他，把棍子压在他肚子上下来回滚动着。
听儿子这么一说，才知道是邪灵在作工。因先生还未信主，我每晚带孩子们去布道会他都不高兴，所以撒但想尽办法来阻挡。但我相信，靠着主的圣名必能得胜。我带儿子回房间，对他说：“别怕，妈妈帮你祷告，赶走撒但。”儿子很不高兴地说：“随便吧，妳愿意妳就祷告。”我坚定地对他说：“我愿意！主必垂听我们的祷告。”
一祷告，他又哭叫起来，说很痛，也很怕。我告诉他说：“不用怕，妈妈在你身边，主耶稣也在你身边。我们信靠祂，祂必帮助。”说完把他抱在怀里继续祷告。感谢主的怜悯，祷告后他睡着了，那时已是深夜两点半；他一觉睡到早上八点半，平安无事。第二天是灵恩会，我把儿子带到教会。
聚会时长老说：“今天是安息日，又是灵恩会。安息日是神赐福的日子，又加上灵恩，所以今天是双重恩典的日子。”我听到这话，充满信心，心想：今日我儿子必蒙怜悯。感谢神奇妙的恩典，那天他整日都很平安。
这些日子来，教会的传道和弟兄姊妹天天都帮他祷告。代祷是大有功效的，儿子到现在都很平安。感谢主，基督徒有主帮助和看顾是最大的福气。
虽然先生还未信主、小孩尚未受洗；但我相信，主救我，也必救我全家。在此也请大家继续为我祷告，求主带领我们全家早日归入主的名下。愿一切的荣耀、感谢、赞美都归给主的圣名！阿们！
按：感谢主，邝姊妹的儿女灏峰与恩彤在先生的同意下，于2005年5月1日灵恩会受洗。
In the name of the Lord Jesus I testify.
Thanks to God that I may have this opportunity to count His blessings. Before I came to believe in the Lord, I was hot-tempered and would often beat my children for no apparent reason.
In 1997 Sister Xiao-Juan Ma said to me, "You can come to the church that I attend, and see if that will be of any help to you."
Praise God, from then on, I came to church frequently on Sabbaths to enjoy the grace bestowed by God. Furthermore, I was baptised in October 1998, thus becoming a child of God.
1. Keeping Faith through Relying on the Lord
In God has instructed us, "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in the heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below.
You shall not bow down to them or worship them." Because I worship this one and only God, creator of the universe, I receive much grace from the Lord Jesus.
As a child of God I know that keeping the Ten Commandments is the most fundamental principle and I strive to keep Gods commands.
In March 2000, due to the severe illness of my mother, my older sister and I returned to China to visit her. This trip was also the very last trip where I saw my mother.
She had suffered from a psychological disorder since 1976; hence often she would rebuke people and walk around aimlessly during the nights when the disorder played up. Praise God, as soon as I started truth-seeking, I prayed for her often.
Her condition improved and she was gradually healed from the sufferings of her sickness. When she passed away, all the relatives in the village gathered us sisters and wanted us to kneel and worship her.
I made known to them that I could not kneel before her since I have already believed in Jesus. They rebuked me, "Mother has given birth to you and educated you, yet when you are asked to worship her, you are not willing! How dishonouring is that!" No matter how hard they tried to persuade me, I insisted on not kneeling.
My sister told me, "It is only for a short moment, so you might as well kneel." But I replied, "Yes, it is only for a short moment, but in doing so, I would be unable to turn back.
You do not only show honour for parents after they have passed away; you should care for them and repay them while theyre still alive."
Upon hearing my reply, my sister became angry and said, "I will no longer have any regard for you." Praise the Lord, He is omnipresent and is our everlasting help.
As long as you rely on Him, He will help you. Therefore, I squatted down and said a silent prayer asking God to open a way. Just as I closed my eyes, the Lord twice revealed to me clear burning pillars of fire that manifested in mid air moving towards me.
My heart instantly felt a sense of consolation and peace. Although my mother had departed me, the Lord stays with me. He Himself comforted me so that I was without worry or fear.
After the vision, no one forced me to kneel anymore. My father even spoke up for me in requesting respect for my religion.
This reminded me of the scene in which God called Moses on Mt Horeb. I thank God that He wiped away my tears and kept me sanctified.
2. The Grace of the Lord is Sufficient
One early morning of September 2000, I suddenly heard my car alarm going off and the car was driven off. My husband quickly got into his car to chase after it, while I knelt down to pray after phoning the police.
Initially in my prayer, I merely asked the Lord to help my husband in getting the car back but did not think of his safety.
Miraculously as the prayer progressed, it occurred to me: "What if the car is chased back? Would he be able to drive two cars at once? How many people were involved in the theft? Would my husband be safe?" Having these thoughts lingering on my mind, I told the Lord, "O Lord, I give thanks to you that this car was bestowed to us.
If you are willing for me to own this car, it will surely be found. Now I ask you to protect my husband so that he is able to return home safe." Not long after the prayer, my husband returned safely.
However the next night, Friday evening, after the hymn singing and prayer service when I was about to drive my two children home, my son suddenly cried out "Mother, our car has just been stolen again."
Hearing my sons cry, I quickly ran to the doorway to check, and indeed our car had been driven off like the breeze of the wind. We had lost two cars in three days and in my anxiousness I did not know what I should do so I cried with my children.
Then a committee member Brother Kuo asked everyone to pray; and this incident was also reported to the police.
Praise God. Those who rely on Him will not be put to shame; if you rely on Him wholeheartedly, He will surely help you. The car that was stolen at church was found after two days, and the other stolen car was also found after two months.
During that period of time, brothers and sisters prayed for us continuously. There was one sister who lent me her car, some others helped us financially, and some came to my house to comfort us.
From these many acts of love, I saw Gods abundant grace. I thank the Lord and may God remember their love for it is so good to have the Lord. His grace is surely sufficient for me.
3. Victorious in Christ
During the April school holidays in 2004, my sons abdominal pain relapsed. After seeing the doctor twice, there were no improvements and taking medication at the instructed intervals had no effects.
The doctor arranged for him to take an x-ray at the childrens hospital, but nothing unusual was found. Despite this, his abdomen continued to ache, and strangely enough, it occurred only at night and almost always at the same time.
Whenever the specific time arrived, he would wail and shout in pain.
Coincidently, the Church held the autumn evangelical convocation at that time. On the 4th evening of the convocation, I asked my son to rest at home because my husband had returned home early from work.
At midnight, I heard my son wailing in front of the toilet, his cry filled with horror. I rushed over to see him and found that he had been awakened by pain, and wanted to go to the toilet.
He said while he was going into the toilet, he saw a girl with golden hair standing at the doorway holding a baton in her hand. She grabbed him from behind and rolled the baton up and down his abdomen.
On hearing his words, I realised that this was the work of the evil spirit. My husband is yet a believer, and taking my children to church every evening made him unhappy, thus Satan would try to oppose us through all means.
Nevertheless, I believed we would prevail through relying on the name of the Lord. I took my son back to his bedroom and said, "Dont be afraid, mum will pray for you to cast away Satan." he unhappily replied, "Whatever. If you are willing to pray, then pray." I firmly said to him, "I am willing, God will surely listen to our prayer."
Just as I started praying, he cried again saying he was in pain and was afraid. I told him, "Do not be afraid, mum is next to you, and so is the Lord Jesus. He will help us because we are relying on Him."
After reassuring him, I held him in my bosom whilst I continued to pray. Thank God for His mercy, for it was only at 2:30am when he finally fell asleep after the prayer.
My son slept peacefully all the way until 8:30am the next morning. That day was the spiritual convocation so I took him to church. When the service started, the elder said on the pulpit, "Today is the Holy Sabbath as well as the spiritual convocation.
The Holy Sabbath is a day blessed by God, and adding onto that the grace of the spiritual convocation, today becomes a day of double blessings." On hearing these words, faith filled my heart, "My son will surely be shown mercy today".
Thanks be to God for his miraculous grace, for in the day everything was at peace for my son.
Throughout those days, the preacher, as well as many brethren, interceded for my son daily. Intercessions are powerful, and my son has received peace till this day. Praise the Lord, Christians are most blessed to have the help and the protection of God.
Although my husband is yet to be a believer and my children have yet to be baptised, I firmly believe if God delivers me, he will surely deliver my whole family.
Here I ask for everyones continual intercession, that God may guide my whole family into His name. May all the glory, thanksgiving, and praises be unto His name. Amen.
Note: Thanks to the grace of God, the children of Sister Kuang: Marcus and Carrie were baptised on the 1st of May 2005 with her husbands consent.